Suicide: The Ultimate Family Secret

by | Sep 13, 2021 | what you can do | 4 comments

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What impacts countless lives worldwide every day sending out waves of pain and suffering?

Suicide, the ultimate family secret.

Suicide devastates families, breaks hearts, and destroys lives. Suicide wrecks marriages, shatters dreams, annihilates hope.

Suicides are the tenth leading cause of death in the U.S. That’s one hundred and thirty-two people every single day. Five every hour. In 2018, the American Foundation for Suicide Prevention (www.afsp.org) recorded 1.4 million Americans made at least one attempt with 48,344 souls succumbing to this national tragedy.* How many are never even reported? These aren’t meaningless statistics. Life is precious. Each number represents a person who was loved, who once had hopes and dreams—who mattered.

My Family Secrets

One of my daughters struggled with thoughts of suicide off and on for years. I never wanted anyone to know. Thankfully, her attempts were unsuccessful. The fear of losing her that way paralyzed me and filled me with indescribable terror. Not knowing what to do or how to save her was horrific.

My Aunt Doris died by suicide. I never had the chance to meet her. She ended her life when she was twenty seven, a few months before I was born.

Before I took my first breath she took her last.

She was my mom’s sister—her twin. My mother never spoke of Doris’ death. She never told me how her sister left this world.

She. Couldn’t.

She couldn’t force herself to say the words out loud.

She couldn’t talk about the suicide…with anyone.

Hush. Hush. Don’t’ reveal the truth.

Some families have too many secrets;

Too many burdens to bear,

Too much shame,

Too much pain

Carefully hidden in the shadows,

Neatly swept under proverbial rugs

Where no one can see.

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Buried deep. Held within.

Where no one will know

Or suspect or ask questions.

No one will gossip or slander

Or whisper behind closed doors.

 

No tongues tsk-tsking

No eyebrows raised,

No haughty glances,

No judging or thinking less

Of their loved one…or of them.

 

Their memory untarnished,

Their reputation spared,

Saved from blushing and hushing,

From thoughtless words spoken

Yet not from pretending or acting or dying—inside.

They’re stuck with a legacy of lies and deception,

Of make-believe stories with fairytale endings.

Because death by suicide is the ultimate family secret.

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The Sad Truth

I found out about my Aunt Doris’ suicide when I was a young teenager. An older cousin whispered the secret to me and another cousin under the cloak of darkness on a hot summer’s night. Stunned and speechless, I kept the taboo discovery to myself. Somehow I knew I shouldn’t mention the shocking revelation to my parents. But over the years I often wondered about her life. Why did she lose hope? What led to her demise?

Eventually, I learned that poor Doris suffered with a mental illness. In those days (late 1940’s early 50’s) a mental health diagnosis brought embarrassment and shame. Our family rarely talked about her except to say she was a talented artist. My grandparents kept a large, floral painting she made for them on the wall of their living room. The piece always fascinated me. A framed, black and white family photo captured my curiosity too. My aunt’s large, piercing dark brown eyes had a melancholy look about them. They captured my imagination. What unspoken heartache did she bear? Was there anyone who could listen and be there for her on her hard days?

I can only imagine the affect her suicide death must have had on my grandparents, plus her other sister and brother. After what I’ve been through with my daughter, I shudder to think of their crushing loss. To know they carried this secret with them for the rest of their lives hurts my heart.

Catalysts for Change

I share this because I firmly believe if we talk about suicide and mental health, we can be catalysts for change. We can facilitate long-overdue compassion and openness. Stigma and shame can be lessened. Healthier, supportive communities can be generated that come alongside those who struggle. Devastating losses would no longer be processed in secret. There would be no need to hide and suffer in isolation.

Death by suicide is tragic, but there’s hope. Click here to read a story of hope.

Have you heard of QPR—Question, Persuade, Refer? Anyone can learn this simple, preventive, three-step strategy. QPR is credited with saving many lives. How? Because, when followed, the hopeless individual realizes someone cares enough about them to do something. And often, the crucial first step—asking the question “Are you thinking of ending your life?”—can make the difference between life and death. Professionals say this alone is all many people need to not give up. With even a small dose of compassionate support the despondent person can find the hope they lacked until they receive professional help.

Find out more on their website: qprinstitute.com   In-person and online training is available.

Recommended resources:

Night Falls Fast: Understanding Suicidee by Kay Redfield Jamison

Grieving a Suicide by Albert Hsu

Finding Your Way After the Suicide of Someone You Love by Biebel/Foster

No Time to Say Goodbye by Carla Fine

American Foundation for Suicide Prevention (www.afsp.org)

The National Alliance on Mental Illness (www. nami.org)

Suicide Prevention Lifeline   1-800-273-8255

Crisis Textline  741741

*Suicide statistics: www.afsp.org

4 Comments

  1. Amy

    Thank you, Dena.
    By shedding light on mental health you are giving hope to others. Thank you.

    Reply
    • Tom and Dena Yohe

      Thank you, Amy. That’s my goal!

      Reply
  2. Samantha Waters

    Thanks Dena. I am a survivor of a completed sibling suicide and have only recently came to terms with it.
    This is wonderful information 🌸

    Reply
    • Tom and Dena Yohe

      Samantha, thank you for your comment. I’m so sorry about the loss of your sibling. I’m so glad you found this information to be helpful. I pray for your comfort. I have no siblings but I hear that losing one is so hard, especially to suicide.

      Warmly in Christ. Dena

      Reply

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